Tired...
I'm damnly tired, though it's my day off and I've been doing nothing...
It hurts to see someone you love in pain..
It hurts even more when it's not just someone, but many...
It hurts so much when you get scold for doing nothing wrong...
It hurts just as much to know what you did only make things worst...
It hurts and it's fucking tired living in this stupid world...
sometimes...
I wish I could just lay down to sleep and close my eyes forever...
Not like I've never tried anyway~
Buy, yeah, that's not an option anymore now...
When I have things I can't let go of...
It's ironic how what I always longed for become what hold me from doing what I want...
You ain't gonna know I'm talking about you,
But I just wanna feels like I've said it, at least to someone...
YOU, my dear, you are the only reason on Earth I'm still here ^^
Wanna throw all these things inside my head upon you,
But I know you also have things to worry ^^
So, it's ok.
I'll cope with it.
After all, it's just me and my own stupidity that put me in this position anyway...
somewhere out there...
I really do wish...
That there will be...
What I am waiting for...
Somewhere to lay my heart...
Something to fulfill it...
and someone to own it...
* wishing upon the stars *
sometimes... pillow are too cold, you know?
^^
* wondering about old things and feels like crying over stupid stuff once more *
This winter is running me crazy!!!
Just let me be, ok?
I'll be fine (hopefully).
PS. to someone, glad to see you smile from your heart and through your eyes once more ^^ I think I know the reason behind that smile, but nothing can confirm it right now... So all I'm saying is... Whatever the reason is, keep it, ok? Just keep the smile and please always know that it's the greatest treasure for many others ^^
PSS. to another someone, thanks for always being there ^^ Wanna call you and do nothing but cry, but if I do so, you'll be shocked, right? So I'm not doing it, don't worry. I'm just getting a stupid mood swing (as usual).
